September 2010
6 posts
I feel guilty walking
Feel guilty talking
Feel guilty breathing
Without you near me
I want you to hear me
I want you to see me
I want you to stowaway
I want you to stowaway
It’s left me with ashes
Tearing eyelashes
Ripping tooth and nail
Caught me by the tailcoat
Drowning in a sailboat
That still remains
The ship retains its frame
Our names, they are the...
I woke up this morning and sobbed.
I just want to break down and disipate.
Honestly, I feel you there…but then the reality of it is that you are there…but only in my head.
The last time I heard your voice, you said, “I’ll get better”
The last time I saw you, you made sure that I knew that if there was something I wanted to do—do it. Don’t tell myself...
I am you now.
Livid.
“You’re so far away”
When the wind blows northeast, I look down
In hopes that it will knock me from my feet
And carry me away
“You’re so far away”
When I look at these mountains that surround me
All I see is a back drop
A charade
Something someone put there to keep us here
“We can breathe in space, they just don’t want us to escape”
I...
Wasted.
One reason I don’t watch TV is the length. Honestly, taking those 45 minutes out of everyday you would watch feels wasted. A regular season in TV lasts about 22-24 episodes. Depending on the duration of the episodes, one season could take anywhere from 7-16.5 hours to finish.
Not to mention most of the stuff on TV is crap anyway. Oh no, my oh so normal family isn’t so normal, or...
Shudder.
I watched clouds move today
As vagrants in the sky
Phantoms pushing angels into mountains
And during the turmoil
I saw the canvas they fought on
The same color as those last at sea breathe
And I thought to myself
“You’re not far away”
Just as the light shone through
The war continued
And the hand on my shoulder brought me back
Only to realize that I can’t fly
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