I Just Think I'll Scream

Because now that it’s done

My inhaler has a purpose

I’ve stopped running and decided to pace the next lap

Step by step

On my own

Without everyone

Just me and the lion inside me

Clawing it’s way into my heart

No matter how little it is

Jump start my exit at 0:50

Rocking back and forth as the bounds of mass and metal clang in rhythmic patterns

As sirens call me out to sea, to walk on water, and to find an underwater cemetery on excursion 

I can’t help but to notice that all around me is blue

And these dark walls of water wash over and aside me

Scrubbing the feeling you left off of me

I don’t know why, but it is a satisfying feeling…

Breathing on your own

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It is something I haven’t done in a while

And now

I have no safety net

I have everywhere to go 

And I’m going fast

Scramble while you can

‘Cause you won’t make it

Swallow all of your words

‘Cause you can take it

Wear your heart on your sleeve

‘Cause I’ma break it

I just kind of want to tell everyone to screw themselves.

Just a thought.

If I could, I’d break away from home

And distance myself in lithium chrome

Where the red shines brighter

And faster

And hotter

And if you’re looking for the best

Better bet that I shot her

The hand was a winner with aces in the deck

But being a champion is like the brightest speck

Because in these columns and forums that hold me

A universe explodes in the sky, a galaxy

Yeah, I feel like I already graduated

Maybe not strongest or the most educated

But because everyone tells me I’m special

That I’m a one of a kind snowflake, a golden utensil

In the cabinet of the world to be used and disposed of

To experience life, and loss, to find truth and love

But let’s be honest about the damnable society

And how humanity doesn’t mix with propriety

If I’m so special and absolutely amazing

Then why do I spend my just gazing

I should be as big, hell, if not bigger

I’m actually alive, but hey, go figure

I’m just a life, another one in the sea

Small is my life, insignificant as can be

Because I’ve got your hand in mine

And new lands in mind

And certainly some day over time

I’ll command and I’ll conquer over the line

And I’ll charge the field on elephants

You make me realize

That I am not right

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And it’s when I’m wrong

That I find a way along

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Dine in, take out

It’s all about

To change

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Sit down, stand up

You win the cup

At range

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Why do you look so strange?

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I’m tearing myself

I am tearing myself

I am tearing myself

Away

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You’re contradicting yourself

You’re contradicting yourself

You’re contradicting yourself

Today

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Maybe when I can see

The world will finally

Revolve around me

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Content to be

Just turned eighteen

But take a knee

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You’re still early

Too young for me

Go back to sleep

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My varsity blues are

Dripping on you and

They stain

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My greedy grin

Is all for sin

And I’m not tame

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Breaking off my chain

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I’m tearing myself

I am tearing myself

I am tearing myself

Away

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You’re contradicting yourself

You’re contradicting yourself

You’re contradicting yourself

Today

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You’re looking fine

In cheap satin twine

Revolt tonight

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Let’s paint you down

And break new ground

And muffle the sound

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Got a Bradbury in my head

But an Orwell comes out instead

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I’ll burn us alive

If you let me survive